Very perturbed by the fact that i wasn't doing anything and tired of "not doing anything" for days, I thought I must give some direction to my life.I realised that i needed help probably but didn't know the source of help when my eyes noticed a book covered in a layer of dust on my table-"the monk who sold his ferrari". I'd tried reading that book before-key to boredom,philosophical and soporific.But I desperately needed help and if I can get a little inspiration or motivation from the book, why not? As i progressed through the book I changed my opinions about it though I agree it still has the lullaby effect at times.:)Of course the book is extremely inspiring, will give a slight push atleast. I successfully read the book but my confusions and questions had multiplied four fold. Robin Sharma's creation Julian Mantle says -"The secret of happiness is simple:find out what you truly love to do and direct all of your energy towards doing it".People must think 'wow! is that so simple?'.But it put me into deeper trouble. i kept wondering as to what is it that i truly love to do? what would keep me in constant interest and enthusiasm? and give some direction and meaning to my life?... I'm still searching for answers. I don't find people having so much trouble with that.I've friends who are passionate about music,flying,football,dance,acting and even linux! and they just don state it as their passion,they really work towards it. they really know what they love to do! its not like I'm not interested. I find myself interested in many things. But i wonder if i can really term it as my "passion". Another enlightening quote from the book says-"The purpose of life is a life of purpose!".Phew! That only makes my head feel heavy.Powerful thought. Its been twenty long years and I'm yet to find the purpose of life. What my true passion is. what is the driving force..
Acc to RS, real source of happiness can be stated in a
word-"achievement".But what is really is achievement?living for 20 years? having survived so many exams? NO.. not at all.. achievement must be such that it brings immense satisfaction to you and also brings a smile on someone else's face.Not one incident that i can recollect that has made someone else and also me unbelievably happy. Feels like a waste of so many years of "survival". The character Julian claims to have acheived vitality and eternal happiness following the advice of the sages residing in the himalayas who believe that "only those who seek shall find". I do wanna seek but I'm a little lost and I'm wondering as to what i really wanna seek. What are my passions and objectives that would make a life more worthy of living, a life of purpose and that of achievement! Hope to find the missing parts of the jigsaw puzzle of my life soon..
